Two months since my last post? Doesn't seem possible. Time in the time of Covid is surreal. My handsome well hung visitor from the July 4th post came back today. Things went pretty much the same but the comfort level was better. This time as we fucked and our eyes held each other, he communicated much more with slow head movements. His head moved side to side to let me know he was not ready to come yet. He nodded as I picked up the pace of pounding his ass. He nodded again as I grunted like I was getting ready to cum and then I slammed him hard and he came, shooting volleys of cum over his head. He obviously wanted me to cum before him (I didn't, saved it for later). Yes, I do fake cumming once in awhile.
Wearing masks while having sex is still odd. It's no big deal if I am taking a guy from behind, but when face to face it's weird. To understand better, when I fuck a guy on my table (which is rare), there are generally two positions that we use: 1. Doggy style with both of us on the table 2. me standing on the floor with the client on their back on the table and their legs over my shoulders. It's not just sex. I am used to watching my client's face when I massage them for feedback for what they like and what they do not. The same is true for the client, they will occasionally look at my face to see if touching my leg bothers me or not (or wherever they may be touching). The eyes can say a lot, but I miss the rest of it. Oh, and the look of peace on a man's face when I continue to massage them after their orgasm.
I think that I have weathered the pandemic as well as can be expected. If you are in a long term relationship (as I have been these past 20 some odd years), then you may have experienced the odd duality of both wanting desperately to spend time with others and desperately wanting alone time. I love my husband and I think we are managing really well. However, I would love to have the house to myself again for a few hours every day. I am sure he feels the same. It is harder than ever right now as he works for a school system but is working from home. This means he is constantly on the phone or on zoom mtgs and I need peace and quiet for my clients. My business is still pretty slow, so usually I can manage to schedule around his mtgs but not always. I have had to send my poor husband outside behind the house (which is a nice covered patio with nice furniture) so he can do his mtgs and I can work in peace. Up until now it had not really been an issue, when schools closed so did my business. When I was able to start taking clients, he was on summer break. We really thought that he would be working in the school building by this time. But we adjust and life goes on if we are lucky. However, there are days that I just want to stay naked and masturbate over and over until I shoot dust and pass out, and then when I come to, stay naked and eat pasta.... you know what I mean.
I am still at about 50% of where my business is normally this time of year. I have also lost a lot of income from cancelled theatrical shows. One of the companies that I worked for on a regular basis may have closed for good. And yet, knock on wood, we are doing OK financially, while our income is down, so is our spending. We rarely eat out anymore and we haven't paid for a theatre ticket since March, huge cost savings. Also there was no summer vacation - no wknd trips to the beach or week long camping trips, or trips to Europe or visit to family. I have the urge to spend money on some big home reno project but also feel that we could face another shut down sometime this fall or winter so I had better hold onto that cash.
I really wish I had a magic look into the future, if this is the beginning of the end of times, I would like to know. I can then pick up all the dirty habits of my youth: smoking, drinking, some pot, lots of sex... OK, so I actually have way more sex now than I did in my youth but it would still be nice to not worry about tomorrow for awhile.
