Recent Email from a Reader (Posted With Permission)

I love your blog.  I written positive comments and you’ve responded.  I think I told you about traveling to India last fall and getting 18 massages.

 

I absolutely love getting massages, and I always leave a good tip (25%).   Right now I’m seeing a guy once a week for 90 minute massages.  Sometimes he will spend as much as 10 to 30 minutes talking to me before the massage begins, depending on his schedule.  Usually very little talking during the massage, but some days are different.  Over time, several months now, he has been really opening up to me and vice versa so we are getting to know one another.  I like him.  We are both gay, he’s 42 and I am 59 (I’m an avid yoga practitioner so I’m trim and in pretty good shape).  Lately he’s been bringing up the topic of sex in a variety of ways—he’s told me he has good sex with his partner, he’s HIV positive, he once had an intense infatuation with a guy we both know, etc......last visit he told me that he usually got very aroused when he was receiving a massage, although not so much when giving one as that was work.  We never use any draping and honestly I’ve never gotten aroused with him.  I have no fear of that, but his massages are so deep and powerful that I go into the zone, really deep state, plus he doesn’t go for the erotic zones. 

 

I’m really beginning to get the impression that he’s telling me in a very round about way that if I want to get aroused during sessions that is okay.  BUT, for me to get aroused, I need the massage to be  slightly erotic, little brushes of the hand against erogenous zones.  Any feedback?  This guy is quite professional and has never said anything about sensual or erotic massage, but now that I’m a trusted, repeat client, and with his remarks about how he gets aroused when he is on the receiving end, make me wonder if he’s not opening up the door a bit.  Should I come right out and ask him if he does erotic massage?  I don’t want to do any “damage” to our relationship, which is very good, and up to now, not sexual.  I have lately been leaking pre-cum and I know that he doesn’t miss a thing, he’s keenly observant.

 

Thanks.  Keep blogging.

My Response:

Honestly, from what you have said, I agree with you. He is opening the door to something else. If you are comfortable talking with him, I would ask him verbally if he ever does erotic massage or if it something that he would consider. If he says no, you just "OK, I was just curious, love your work, keep doing what you've been doing." If he says yes, then the ball is in your court and you can decide whether or not you want one.

Gay male masseurs get asked this question often. For most, the stock answer they give is no. However, there are a great many who normally say no but for a long time attractive client will bend their rules. I suspect that this is the case here. If you have seen him that often and are have good talks, feel free to ask away.

- Jack

Apartment living

OK, I hate living in an apartment sometimes.
Working from your home is a benefit that most bodyworkers enjoy. It definitely has it's perks. No commute, saves money on renting a place of business (most massage salons take half of your money off the top), you can dress or undress as you please. ;-)
Now the ideal is owning your home, however most of us do not make that good of money to accomplish this so we rent. When working from your apartment the issues are numerous.
First, you have no control over the neighbors. In my building, the noise bleed from one apartment to the next isn't too bad but anything that happens in the hallway can be heard pretty clearly. So when the neighbors come tromping up and down the stairs, I hear it, as does my client. When they slam the doors (why do so many people slam their doors?) we hear it, when they continue their conversation or fight into the hallway, we hear it. If your neighbors decide to sit outside your building, drink beers and smoke cigarettes - there is little you can do to control it and it leaves a bad impression on your client which means you have to work that much harder.
Or there is the situation I am currently in. Maintenance. Our building is OK with letting you know when they are dropping by, but not great. Yesterday afternoon a sign went up on my door saying they were coming by today (Friday) to paint my bathroom. The paint in my bathroom has been peeling for sometime now and I have been bugging them to do something. I would have done it myself but we are not allowed. So the two appointments I had scheduled for today I had to call up and cancel, never good for business. Both are clients who have only seen me once before and it is not a good way to build a good client/therapist relationship. Now the issue with the bathroom is that the last time it was painted, they didn't prime it properly so the paint peeled. I wanted to be around to watch that it is done right this time. I figure if they show up early in the AM and prime, they can paint in the afternoon and be done. So I get up early and take everything out of my bathroom and even take the cabinet off the wall so that is all set for painting, and I wait. I figure that the earliest they would be here is 9AM. I start calling at 11AM. 2PM I am told they will be here shortly. At 3 they show up and say this is a bigger job and they will mud today and prime and paint on Monday. So they spend 15 minutes smearing mud over the walls and leave. I put back a few things to make the bathroom somewhat usable for the weekend but now I will loose Monday as a work day as well. If they could have told me approximately what time they were showing up today, I could have got at least one client in and because I will loose Monday, that is potentially another 2 clients I won't get.
Of course it is still not as bad as the time as the guy next door had a clog in his sink. they had a plumber come over and use a snake on his kitchen drain. What occurred to no one was that his kitchen sink and mine share a drain. So I am naked worked on a client doing some sensual work when I start hearing noises coming from my kitchen. It sounds like someone is banging on the sink. Then I hear what sounds like dishes breaking. Then all is peaceful for a while and the noise starts again. This pattern repeats for about 10 minutes until I excuse myself to check what is happening. The pipe snake had come up through my sink and found a dishtowel which was now wrapped around the end so it could not go back down in the sink. It had also knocked a few of my dishes out of the dish strainer (that's what I get for not emptying it right away). The snake was still flopping around with the towel on it and I was standing there naked watching it. I grab it and pull to let the owner on the other side I got it. He pulled back but not too far. I unwrap the towel and push on the snake to let them know I was done. They pull back on the snake and try to twist it back through. I walk back naked to  the table and briefly explain to my client what was happening and offer him a discount for the interruption. We laugh about it and then he looks at me seriously, "they won't be coming over here will they?" I assure him that it is unlikely, but should they ask to be admitted, I will give him his clothes and towel and send him into the bedroom so he can dress in private. There would of course be no charge for the work done up to that point.
So these are some of the hazards of doing massage work in your apartment. Definitely think about these things before you go into business for yourself! Have fun! - Jack

Why don't erotic masseurs and escorts want to kiss?

Not only do most men who work in with erotic energy consider kissing to be one of the most personal experiences that many choose to only share with their significant other, they know it is also the easiest way to get sick. And I don't just mean a cold, flu, or strep throat:

http://infectiousdiseases.about.com/od/respiratoryinfections/a/kissing.htm

Love is in the air

Germs are everywhere

Kissers beware

Of infections you can share.

We know that kisses of passion can lead to one thing or another. But did you know that kissing can also lead to an infectious disease? Mononucleosis, or mono, is the prototypical “kissing disease,” and sexually-transmitted diseases are infamous following some romantic interludes. But did you know that there are many infections that can be spread through mere kissing alone?

Infectious Diseases in Saliva

Infectious diseases are spread through several routes of transmission. “Oral transmission” refers to spreading of microbes through saliva, foods or drinks. When a person accidentally consumes microbe-contaminated items, such as saliva during kissing, the swallowing action of the tongue wipes the microbes against the back of the throat, allowing the microbe to enter the body. Infections, such as mononucleosis (the kissing disease), caused by Epstein-Barr virus (EBV), and cytomegalovirus (CMV) are spread via oral transmission from virus-containing saliva.

Other infectious microbes that spread through saliva do so by sticking to the inner surface of the cheeks and mouth, the tongue, or teeth. An example is the bacterium Streptococcus, which can cause an array of infections, including gum disease and strep throat.

An important thing to keep in mind is that the surfaces of the respiratory tract (nose, mouth, and throat) are continuous and made up of similar tissues. As a result, microbes that are found in the saliva can generally be found in other parts of the respiratory tract, including the nose and throat. Therefore, even colds and flus (and other respiratory infections) can potentially be spread through the saliva.

Infectious Diseases from Mouth Sores

Cold sores

Cold sores are caused by Herpes Simplex Virus-1 (HSV-1). In contrast to infections spread through the saliva, HSV-1 is spread through open cold sores on the lips or near the mouth. Although the infection is contagious through all stages of a cold sore, the infection is most contagious when the sore is open and leaking fluid.

Hand, foot, and mouth disease

Hand, foot, and mouth disease, caused by Coxsackie virus, is another infectious disease that is spread through open sores in the mouth. This infection is common in kids, especially those in daycare or preschool settings. It spreads primarily via the fecal-oral route, a common problem among daycares, since changing of diapers goes on all day.

But canker sores are not infectious.

In contrast to cold sores and coxsackie virus blisters, canker sores have no infectious disease origin and cannot be spread through the saliva or kissing.

What about HIV and Hepatitis B Virus?

HIV and hepatitis B Virus (HBV) are blood-borne and sexually-transmitted infections that have been found in the saliva. Despite the presence of HIV in saliva, there have never been any reports of HIV transmission via this route. In contrast, transmission of hepatitis B virus through saliva has been well documented, as well as hepatitis A and C.

Natural Microbial Defense Mechanisms in the Mouth

Saliva has a natural cleansing role, provided by its flushing activity. Other antimicrobial defenses in the saliva include antibodies and other antimicrobial proteins (e.g., lysozyme), and normal mouth flora (the “good” bacteria that prevents growth of “bad” bacteria).

The spread of infectious microbes through the saliva can occur when natural resistance in the mouth is reduced. For example, gum infections can occur in people with vitamin C deficiencies, and thrush, caused by Candida yeast infections, is more likely to occur in people who have been taking antibiotics. People who are dehydrated have reduced salivary flow and four times more bacteria in their mouths.

Preventing Kissing Diseases

Be careful who you kiss.

Source:

Mims CA, Playfair JH, Roitt, IM, Wakelin D, Williams R, and Anderson RM. Medical Microbiology. ©1993. Mosby-Year Book Europe Limited. London, UK.

Today Sexy Guy

So today was one of those rare days when the client is so much more beautiful than I and yet seems to find me very sexy.
"John" contacted me through a gay massage site and set up a time for a massage. There was not a lot of chatting but I was able to see his profile. There was no photo and it had not been updated in a few years but it appeared that his age was 30 and his description was "fit and trim."
He showed up on time and I was surprised to see a very fit and trim black man about age 30. He seemed pleased to see me and hurried in. I asked the usual questions about aches and pains and as he tells me about his different little aches and his recent activities in sports and his new job as a waiter while he was starting to undress. I must say for a moment I was amazed. His body was amazing. He was muscular and compact, his waist was tiny, his torso a V, his ass was the most amazing bubble butt that I had ever seen and that's saying a lot. His legs were powerful and his cock was huge, his nuts were large and shaved. In general his genitals were far too large for his body. He stood at maybe 5'7" and his waist could not have been more than 26" yet soft his cock was over 6" and fat to boot with balls the size of two large eggs. His butt was also far too large for his light though muscular frame sticking straight out behind him these large full melons defying gravity. He was not at 0 body fat, which made him even more attractive for as the muscles were sitting there in plain view he did not have that "oh for god's sake eat something" look about him, the little fat he had softening the edges and making him approachable.
I told him to climb on the table while I went to wash my hands. I also needed to adjust the erection in my shorts. I told him there was a towel to cover himself if he chose but when I returned he had tossed it aside. He was lying on his stomach as was instructed and one of my favorite sights was in front of me: the curves of a muscular man lying on a flat plane made all the more sensual with the contrast of his dark skin against the cream color of the sheets on the table.
Now there had been no discussion of any erotic or sensual work and generally speaking, most of my younger good looking clients are not really looking for anything more than a good thorough massage, maybe a happy ending with their eyes closed, thinking of someone else perhaps. Even in this state, with the client nude and undraped with legs slightly parted there is still no sure bet of sensual work. His penis was not visible between his legs and I adjusted myself once more and took a deep breath and started my job.
As per usual I start working on John's back, amazed again at the V shape of his torso and tiny waist. His muscle are tight and I give him a deep tissue massage. I check with him often to make sure the pressure is OK. He makes no inappropriate move towards me and I give him a couple of chances. When I work his shoulders with his arm draped over my leg, his forearm milometers from my hard cock, his hand draped on my calf - no advances were made. I work my way to his lower back and hips. Letting my hands graze over those luminous globes of ass.  I work his back hard for 30 full minutes full minutes before I do a light touch over it with just my finger tips. I then massage his scalp and run a finger down his spine to the top of the crack of his ass and back. I check with him to be sure all OK. He says he's doing great. I move to his feet and he sticks a hand beneath his body, raises his hips and shoves his huge erection down between his legs. I am not a size queen but I can be impressed. If his genitals looked too large before, now with a full erection it borderlines on absurd. It is a strong thick uncircumcised cock, the kind with the thick veins showing all over because it is trying to grow even larger. So at least I know I have him aroused. ;-)
I work on his foot and leg trying hard to focus on the task at hand. His calf muscles are well developed and tight. I make sure that he gets the best massage possible and work his tight muscles. I work my way up his leg to the base of his ass. His legs part slightly more and I work the inside of his thighs, it is impossible not to graze his dick since it is filling the space between his legs completely. I bring his foot up and pull his knee outwards and lay the leg back down to open up his groin to massage the adductor muscles. I lean over his ass and run my hands under his leg through his groin, hitting his hard dick and large balls with each stroke, my nose right over the cavern between the mountainous globes of his ass. I lengthen the stroke so that my finger can rub his taint and eventually the rosebud of his ass.  His hand is now right at my crotch and starts to rub it slightly. I repeat the actions far longer than is needed but eventually stop and return his leg to a normal position and check to see how he is doing. "Great" he answers. I then mention that I forgot to ask if he was interested in my being nude - an offer I make to members of the website where he found me. "Yes, that would be nice." I undress and with a smile, repeat the actions on the other leg.
I reach the portion of the massage where I get to focus on that giant Bubble Butt. I truly wish I had taken a picture of it for you. With his small waist and low percentage of body fat his ass stood tall and proud above every other part of his body as he lay on stomach. I started working on the cheek opposite from the side of the table from where I am standing so I am bending over his body and my erection is poking his hip, his hand finds it and wraps around it. I massage his glute deep and hard using both hands like kneading dough and then working across the fibrous muscles with my elbow. I then dig into the crevasse of  his ass stroke from the center out, lightly stroking the rose bud as I do. Then stroke from the top of his crack down over the rosebud, taint, balls to the end of that long thick cock and work my way back. I repeat this action again and again while he strokes my cock. I smile and switch sides of the table and repeat.
I now do a few strokes from shoulders to toes and back, again casually grazing his ass crack. I apply a bit more cream to his rosebud and slowly massage it, his giant cock is twitching and leaking. I lean down to his ear and ask if he would like a prostate massage. "I have never had one but would be willing to try it."
I add a bit more lube and work a single finger into his ass, working between those meaty globes. I go slowly and find his prostate and slowly start rubbing it, his cock is throbbing and leaking copious amounts of pre-cum. After a few moments I withdraw and add a little more lube and a second finger. I again work the fingers slowly in and massage the prostate, I also start working the fingers in circles to widen his sphincter. I check to be sure that his cock is still hard and give it a stroke or two with my free hand, it is like a rock and still oozing. I remove my two fingers and apply still more lube and slowly work three fingers in. I go slowly, stopping occasionally to allow him to adjust to the size. While waiting for him to adjust he suddenly shove his ass up onto my fingers, I follow his ass as it goes down and continue to shove forward until my fingers are completely buried in his ass. I again hold for a few moments then start massaging his prostate and then start fucking him with my hand. I again do this probably longer than needed but it is great fun. I take my hand out and clean it and ask him if he was alright. "That was amazing!" he responds.
"I am going to climb onto the table and work on your back, I promise not to do anything unsafe while I am up there."
"Alright"
I climb onto the table between his legs and start doing long strokes from his feet to his shoulders, my dick sliding up and over his ass cheeks as I go. Work his lower back and then start with my forearms on his ass checks and slide them up to between his shoulder blades. This angle causes my cock slide over his balls and stick deep in the crevasse of his ass. I am careful not to apply to much pressure on his ass so as not to freak him out but keep the dick there for a few moments. I bring my body back and stroke forward again over his back  with my fore arms again and like before, keep my dick knocking at the gates but with no pressure at all. I do not want to fuck him (alright, I do, but I won't) but I want him to think that I might. I again bring my body back and stretch forward again this time lying my body on top his with my dick lying between his ass cheeks with the head at the top of his ass crack. My hands reach down and grasp his hands and I hump his ass ever so slightly, his rises to greet my dick. I stiffen my body against his and squeezes his ass against my dick. I rise up and give some light full body strokes before I lay atop of him again and repeat the previous moves. I climb off and towel him down and do full body feather strokes and ask him to turn over.
I offer him a drink of water and he reclines on his back when he is through. Those melons that stuck up so proudly before are now forcing his crotch high into the air, his long uncut cock has a natural upward curve that I had not noticed before and the head of it alone is touching his abs well above his belly button. I start work on his chest and his head is straining to feel my own hardon as I stand at the head of the table. He finds my erection with his right ear and smiles as he leans his head into it, snuggling with it. His cock jump a bit each time I tease one of his nipples - I make a mental note of that.
I work my way down to his abs, doing circles over his belly and my hands knocking his stiff cock as I rub further down into his pubes with each circumference. I do a stroke up his cock, following the natural curve and amazed at it's length and girth. I follow the curve down again and over his balls down to his rosebud then back up, cupping his large balls and puling them tight, tickling them with the finger tips of my other hand. He is still oozing pre-cum but I want a bit more lube so I add a bit and some again at his hole so I continue to play there. I should make this last but I am hot and just want to jerk him till he cums. His hand is on my cock and he is gently jerking me. I take his cock with both hands and start sliding them both up and down, one following the other, the lower hand sliding pass his ball and stroking his hole before coming up. He releases my cock and puts his hand behind my back, reaching as far as he can as if he is trying to get his arm around me. I step towards the head of the table and his hand keeps reaching around my back, I take another step towards his head while still pumping his dick with both hands. He now can get his hand around hips and pulls me towards his head, I allow myself to be pulled but continue to pump his dick. he sits up a bit then leans over and engulfs my dick in his mouth. This beautiful specimen of young manhood wants nothing more than to suck the hell out of my dick and suck the hell out of it he does. My rule is I don't cum with my clients and my mind is racing a mile minute trying to get my mind off of the grade A blow job I am getting, he is sucking with such gusto and determination, his hands wandering around my ass and up to my nips. I reach with my right hand and get a finger up his ass again and long stroke his cock with my left. I am hoping he will cum before I can no longer hold out but my hips are doing there own thing now and I am pumping his mouth and he is loving it. I take the finger out of his ass and use it to cup the head of his dick and I stroke the length with my other hand, his hips are pumping as well, I know it won't be much longer. His cock is so hard and I feel each vein as it slides through my hand, his mouth is velvety warm around my cock.
In a last ditch effort I take my hand off his cock head and press down hard on his pubic bone, this applies pressure to the bladder and sends him over the edge. A fountain of thick milky white cum shoots from his cock covering his chest and abs. His body heaves with enthusiasm of his orgasm and his ass muscles tense and contract thrusting his groin into the air over and over. He doesn't let go of cock, he keeps sucking on it like there is no tomorrow, like it is the last cock on earth and if he were to let go there would be no other chances. I am perilously close to cumming I try to with draw and his hand claw at my hips. His orgasm subsides and I take his hands in mine and remove them from my hips and withdraw my cock. Orgasm averted. I take a towel and wipe him down. I finish the massage with stretches and long feathery strokes, he reaches for and holds onto my cock when ever it it near.
When it is over and he is draped in a towel, I ask him how he feels. "Amazing, that was a great massage, exactly what I was looking for." He gets up and dresses, his cock now soft is still too long for his body and his balls too large and his ass full and proud. He takes my business card and a few extra. "That was great, I am definitely going to recommend you to my friends and I will be back again for sure." He tips me well and I thank him. I smile as I watch him leave and think about being able to do it all again. ;-)

DADT is dead

DADT is done. Just a quick note to say how thrilled I am about this. Now remember that when Don't Ask Don't Tell was signed into law, it was actually a step forward. Instead of an all out ban on homosexuals in the military, the law was meant to say it's none of our business, but please keep it under wraps. Huge step forward at the time.
Unfortunately it ended up discharging even more men and women than before the ban. Not to mention it was incredibly hard for men and women to serve silently.
But now it is all over and there is much to celebrate. This is a big step forward, though we are still far behind many other countries and gay men and women still suffer a number inequalities under the law in the US. Any thoughts on how long until Federal Recognition of same sex marriage?

Catching up. Not a sexy post. ;-)

First off another apology for not posting in forever. Life, y'know? I have been doing more acting which eats up a lot of my time, I should be writing a short play right now, but I needed to talk to y'all first. Still doing bodywork during the days. Partner is doing fine. He has been in the process of switching careers, a very long slow process, but I am sure that he will be much happier, if not richer. Money is not everything, but it is important in this particular reality.
Overall happiness has abounded considering it has been a rough year so far. One car accident that wasn't our fault and not terrible but upped the insurance to an almost impossible rate. Partner was laid off from his job about 3 months before he planned to quit. His new business is getting off the ground slowly. Next month rent may be an issue for the first time in an amazingly long time, or it won't be. Dealing with ailing parents on my side. So far I have not had to make an emergency trip home, but it won't surprise me too much if I do. We had booked and laid down deposits on a trip to the UK and to the beach before my partner was laid off. Though money was tight we went anyway and had a really nice time in  the UK. Beach was OK. I need to find a new summer get away.
Partner needed new hearing aids, wow, that was expensive... $4000.00 and insurance did not cover a penny of it. Now why would insurance cover birth control and Viagra but not hearing aids? Strange world, but you just have to smile.
I have decided to live life with out a TV. It actually blew up (it was 16 years old) and I probably could afford to replace it, but I realized that it was just not necessary. I was wasting to much time in front of it anyway, and I am re-discovering radio and my amazing CD collection.
Business has been better this year than last, which is good. I do wish the news would stop harping about the economy. Every time there is a major headline about the economy being bad, business drops off for at least a week. However, as I said earlier, bringing in more than last year so that is good!
The acting has been great fun and I had forgotten how much I missed it. It is a lot of hard work but the more you do the easier it is. Gotten a number of good reviews and nominated for a couple of local awards, nice to be recognized.
Spend a lot of time watching old movies at one of our local cinemas and through Netflix on our computer. Keeping cool this terribly hot summer. Other than one or two exceptions, there has not been a lot that I have wanted to see this summer in new movies.
Our time in the UK was made magical by meeting up with  long lost friends who were wonderful hosts, one couple in Wales and another in Ireland. They took time out of their busy schedules to take us to their favorite spots and arranged affordable or even free housing for us including a night in an authentic Irish castle.
The trip to the Beach was a little less spectacular. If you are a regular reader of this blog, then you know I wrote about a gay men's clothing optional bed and breakfast that we have stayed at. Well, after a good many years of making one or two pilgrimages a year there, I think we have had enough. The rates continue to rise each year and the thrill has definitely worn off. Our favorite parts of the trip were not the hot men or the lying out naked but the free concerts at the beach and the nice new little spots to eat. Perhaps next year we need to try nude camping instead. ;-)
Well, that is about it in a nutshell, I am growing a beard for my next role and it is coming in very white - fine for the role but a bit of shock to some of my clients... others love it. Though I do not go to bars frequently, I will say the white beard attracts it own very unique set of young men. I was a bit shocked to be referred to as a "daddy" but I can see the advantages... though honestly, always been attracted to men close to my own age.
Alright, I promise to write again soon about something that you will actually be interested in. Thanks for listening. - Jack

Other cultures…

We are the sum of our experiences.

While I was brought up in a rural neighborhood by very Christian parents, I was also fortunate enough to experience a lot of little life lessons about how no one is perfect and perhaps we all need stop judging and stop trying to pretend that we are any better than we are. For example, while my parents were bringing me up in a very religious life, I also knew that my mother was married twice and I had 4 half brothers, no big deal right? In a very rural and religious part of the country divorce was still looked down upon and it wracked my mother with guilt. Little did I know how the story continues. When I was 16, the only one of the 5 boys still at home, my parents put some photos of when they were younger on display. Well, imagine my surprise when I saw the photo of my father as a young boy looks exactly like a photo of my closest half-brother. When I confronted my mother, she says “Well, I guess there is something we should tell you. He is your full brother, your father and I were having an affair when I was still married to my first husband.” See, even my saintly parents were not perfect and had sex, a lot. While this traumatized me shortly, I soon had my own problems with realizing I was gay, which, when I told my parents they had all the usual responses: It’s a phase, you will go to hell, we will put you through therapy, it’s our fault for not raising you right, it’s god’s punishment for our sins (which is when I learned that mother had to get married the first time because she was pregnant). They did not kick me out of the house; I was in college and didn’t live there any more anyway. My father did say that he loved me but we would never speak of it again. My mother would ask me questions whenever my father was not around. Eventually, as the years passed, my father came around and even they even changed churches to a more liberal one accepting of gay people. If I had been born a decade earlier, I may have gotten married and had children and not come out till later in life and been looking for an understanding gay massage therapist.

Likewise each of my clients are coming to my table with their own unique background. Recently a black man in his early thirties came to me for an erotic massage. He also was raised a Christian and was taught that homosexuality is wrong. He has never told anyone about his feelings for men. He has managed not to get married by telling everyone that he is “playing the field.” He dates women, but never for very long. Many in his life most likely suspect, but have not yet pressured him to “repent” and marry. His experience with men is extremely limited, since he worries that someone will see him with a known gay man. He won’t answer a personal ad, he won’t go to a sex club, he won’t go to an adult bookstore, he won’t go to a gay bar so the few experiences he has had have been mainly when he travels out of town on vacation by himself or for business. His knowledge about safe sex I find was sadly lacking. So he was thrilled to find me, though he drove a good distance to get to me and even then parked around the corner, just in case someone he knows might know what work I do and see his car out front. He was able to let me know that he wanted a sensual massage and wanted to see me naked. I took pity on him and stripped. ;-)

Likewise I recently had an Israeli client who doesn’t want anyone to know that he is gay, for many of the same reasons (slightly different religion). He is an extremely attractive man who trims his body hair all over. He is extremely fit and trim with well defined abs. Normally a man like this should be doing porn, not paying me to give him an erotic massage (although I have massage porn stars before, everyone needs some relaxation). Anyway, because he does not get many chances to be with men, he prefers to pay for his experiences. He avoids bath houses and gay bars since he is worried someone he knows may see him entering or leaving such places. He worries about what might happen if he met a stranger on line, it may be a trap or he may get robbed or worse. So he keeps an eye out for ads for massage by men that have been up for a long time and have good reviews. That is how he found me.

Our session begins as normal with him stripping down and lying naked face down on the table. He asks me if I will strip down as well. I do. I massage his back and legs, he is tense but is relaxing and sinking into the table. He occasionally strokes my cock if it near his hand but is not frantic about it. As I stroke his inner thighs, he sighs contently. I reach through his crotch, under his leg and feel his hard penis. He moans lightly. I massage his buttocks and he grinds slightly into the table. I stroke lightly outside his anus and his perineum, he raises his hip slightly inviting me further. I slowly slide a lubed finger into his ass and massage his prostate. He undulates, trying to get me further into his ass. I slip in a second finger and stroke in and out slowly. He moans lightly. I clean my hands and climb upon the table. I stroke his body from feet to shoulders paying particular attention to his glutes. I lay upon his back with my hard cock nestled between his firm butt cheeks, I grab his hands in mine and squeeze while I stiffen my body giving him my full weight. I climb off and do a light finger stroke over his entire back side and wipe him down with a towel.

I tell him it is time to turn over, I offer him a drink which he takes eagerly while I re-arrange the towels and bolsters. I tell him to lie down on his back and I go to work on his well defined chest cover with shortly trimmed dark hair. I tease his nipple and watch his uncut hard penis twitch. He is hung average, not too large or small and of decent width. I move down to rub his hard abs, his cock doing a frantic dance, begging for attention. I stroke it occasionally to let it know that it has not been forgotten. I switch sides and repeat the ab work. Just as I start stroking his cock with gusto, he asks if we can change positions so he can massage me. I have done this with clients in the past, usually only after they have been regulars for some time, but he has really good energy and I am genuinely aroused. I say sure and switch places with him, lying on my back, showing him where the creams and towels are if he needs anything. He very lovingly strokes my entire body from head to toe. He has a gentle and curious touch, almost as if a blind man is exploring my body for the first time. When he starts to focus on my genitals, he experiments with different strokes on my cock and balls. He then moves down to give me an external anal massage. Through it all he asks for feed back and I give him as much as I can, telling him to experiment and letting him know what feels good. I allow him to play for maybe 15 minutes total before I tell him it is time to switch back. His cock is still very hard and dripping cum.

I massage his legs a bit then go to town on his cock, balls and ass. His hand has a firm grip on my cock stroking it quickly. I know he is close but I tease him, letting him rest between strokes and teasing his nipples. When I feel he has had enough, I focus on his cock while looking into his eyes and encourage him to cum, “yeah man, that’s it, oh fuck yeah, do it now!” He cums, shooting all over his chest, yelling and grunting as he does. I clean him up and continue the massage with the stretches for his legs and arms. I finish with the blessing and ask him how he is doing. He is nothing but smiles and says he loved the massage. He asks me if he could make me cum, I reply that I prefer to share that with my partner (though honestly I was thinking about how much I wanted to fuck that tight hairy ass of his). He understands and we share a naked hug. I hope I get to see him again.

Anyway, the list will go on. I have clients who are Indians, American Indians, Hispanics etc, each with it’s own set of hang ups on sex, particularly gay sex. Many get married like they are expected to, the younger ones put it off if they can. Many have moved far from their families but even then feel that there are others in their current society who will be more judgmental than they can handle. Many clients have their own personal baggage from personal experience that were either pleasant or not. Some open up and tell me as much as they can while others will tell me nothing at all, in which case, I just have to listen to their bodies and my intuition and hope for the best.

Again as I have said before, to think that there is no place in our society for workers like me is only because you do not know what is out there.